What did I do?

To deserve this punishment

Seemingly eternal

I have been damned

Trapped in this mind of mine

Fighting the negativity that loves

To consume me

What did I do

To deserve endless nights of self pity

Drowning in my thoughts

Slipping away

What did I do

To deserve pain like this

I scream when nobody’s around

The sound clawing out of my throat

The only release i have

What did I do to deserve

That forced smile on my slips

The fake laugh

Pretending my mind is not a battle ground

Ravaged by depression and anxiety

Wrecked by a tornado of hatred and negativity

My body is a ghost town

I tell you that I’m okay

I’m not